Solitude

Creation often looks collective from the outside. It rarely is. From the first idea to the last adjustment, it’s me facing the project. No one else can enter that space.

Ideas, decisions, mistakes... I face them on my own. I solve what breaks, I decide what stays. Working alone has its advantages. Some things moves faster. I don't have to negociate direction or justify choices.

At the beginning, being alone feels normal. Then time passes.

I keep evolving, but in isolation. No shared reference point, no one inside the process. People only see the result. The finished version.

They don't see the back-and-forth, dead ends, doubts and frustrations.

The gap can be heavy. Even when the work is finished, that solitude remains.

Some days, that solitude is manageable, other days it's exhausting. At times, it's even discouraging. But it's part of the job I guess.

Creative work may look shared from the outside.

Frome here, it rarely is.